second hand smoke

I spent my nights looking at dreams made out of plastic
And couldn’t help but watch them fall apart
I spend my days trying for honest but being sarcastic
And took my demons and made them into art
 
Unwise Angels, Mistaken
Letting the devil take the decision
Broken Wings, Raven
Looking for fake restitution
 
When one of these days, our love turns into flames
I’ll bury my broken heart, waiting for you in this place
 
I cut off all my friends for months on ends
And I breathe second hand smoke every day
When I feel empty I smile and I pretend
Like I am playing a part in someone’s play
 
Longing, Careless Infatuation
Letting myself burn for a stranger
Glitchy, Blurred observation
Ignoring signs of danger
 
Not understanding why it hurts when I am reminiscing
When my eyes were open every time I was kissing
 
They say I have way too many friends but I feel so alone
I never get high then why do I feel so low
Something in me still burns and tells me to be strong
Everything doesn’t shine or sparkle, some things glow
 
Re-imagine, Icarus Falls
Breakdown these walls
Lost, Unmined Gold
What the future holds
 
Clear out this smoke and wait for what’s in store
What if I truly love it and it loves me more ~